I Can't Unlove You

7/31/2006

7/31/2006 07:37:00 PM

today has been quite a bad day. not only did i teared for that fucking results, but also those bloody cockroaches. and meaning cockroaches, i mean those real live ones, those brown colour disgusting things. eeew. okay, so it goes like this. morning i happily happily walked to the room and packed my bag then suddenly i felt something itchy on my leg. then when i looked, it's this disgusting creature!! eeeeeeewwwwwww cann. seriously. eew. eew. eew. then after that i ran out of the room and told my dad to like catch it or something. then he say WAIT! then by the time he went in, there was like nothing there alr la. wtf. wtf. of course, i did wash my feet la, with SOAP. eew eew eew. i hate cockroaches. then the worse part is that i have to go into that bloody room again to take my belongings out la. haha, and yes, i did teared. it's like.. eeyer. so that's it, my horrible cockroach experience. eew. :/

next thing to add on the bad day list. i know that my ezlink card no money alr, so i prepared 55 cents to go onto the bus la. i even scared the bus uncle don't accept 50 cents cann and malu me. so yeah. then i sad sad go up the bus then tong the money into the thing, then the bus uncle want me to show my ezlink card. irritating. then behind is like so many people behind waiting to come up la. fuck la. like that alr nvm lehh, but hor, later got one girl come up the bus tong the coin alr then i dunno what la, short of money or smth, then the bus uncle ask her go change cause she dun have change mah. then after that that girl sit down first. then when reach another stop, the bus uncle like shout over the whole bus tell her lahh. then she so malu lahh, ask ppl for change and all. fuck than uncle la. got to hell. hymph.

so overall, today's a bad day. oh, and thanks for all the people who comforted me lahh, i tried to control but failed. sorryy. thanks to jing zhen dui shou and iris being the first ones to come to my table and offer tissue paper to me. and all those lahhh. i hate today.

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7/28/2006

7/28/2006 05:31:00 PM

finally! common test is over. countless of sleepless nights, and today, i can sleep alr!! hahhaha. but i still can't forget that i screwed up my history and geog which are supposed to be my better subjects la. and i mean it. history, for the structured essay qns, my mind suddenly go blank and forgot what i've read earlier on. like fuck la. now is so based on source based which of course i have no confidence in helping me get marks. geog, the atlas skills. bloody hell lahh, i didn't write the treatment works behind the places and minus off a lot of marks cann. for english, no need to say lah. my english has always been bad. i bet i'm one of the 13 ppl who fail. not cursing myself lah, but.. keep my fingers crossed mann. then maths, the graph thing i drew wrongly lah. should be intersect but mine nvr= no marks=do badly. bleahhh. so these are sort of the major subjects that i'm worried for lahh. not like other people say everything will fail then in the end get very high marks. i hate those type of ppl cann. just follow the crowd and say fail. walao, cursing yourself isit. aiya whatever lahh.

nothing to say alr lehh, end here then. (:

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7/25/2006

7/25/2006 07:56:00 PM

so today had maths and literature common test. maths.. forget it lahh. and lit.. ahh forget it also. hahaha. so printing science pp slides. waste my paper and ink!! haha, really cann. use so much paper and ink. hahaha. so yeah. hais. siann. i hate to force myself to go and study okay. it's really torturing. i hate exams mann. aiya, nothing to say alr lahh. (:

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7/20/2006

7/20/2006 07:53:00 PM

so.. i dunno whether tomorrow's there's rockwall climbing or what la. the moodle says it's the 4th. but 4th is like school holiday or something right? so yeah. then tmorrow.. aiya i dunno lahh. okay. what should i say.. (thinking)(still thinking).. ahh! i've changed my specs! haha. what's the sudden highness with me mann. hahaha. so these few days are okay lah. so common test is coming.. sian arhh. sure grow a lot of white hair one.. :/ haha, dunno what to say alr lah. and previous days stuff i alr forgot, so yeah.

haha. 5 random facts about me:
1. i hate football.
2. i don't like guitar.
3. i usually don't say hi back to the person saying to me. haha, i'm not dao can! just don't like. so don't misunderstand. (:
4. i don't like chocolates.
5. err.. i love sports? haha. just don't do well in it, so yeah.

conclusion: basically i'm a weird kid. as you can see, i hate football, guitar, and chocolates which many of you like. but who cares. haha. i find nothing appealing to all those stuff lahh. so yup.

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7/15/2006

7/15/2006 09:23:00 PM

walao la. my brother bang the ''enter'' keyboard this time, and now it's spoiled. urghh. hopefully get to change keyboard soon la. hais. today. doing research research research. haha it's driving me crazy la. haha, got use com for own personal use also la.

oh, iwebmusic is so not good la. all the music i want don't have. then i have to stay with this song. sighh. haha. today watched kids choice awards 2006. okay la. but hilary duff nvr win anything. sad lah. oh and jesse almost fall down! hahaha. but he's still cute la, don't worry.

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7/14/2006

7/14/2006 06:29:00 PM

today's cao shuang's birthday and i'm supposed to be happy. but hey, guess what. i'm not. i feel such a failure. well, forget it lah. i'm already numbed. no feeling alr. so be it. sigghh. i've tried everything to make people happy. now who's the one who would make me happy? yeah, i would've guessed it. none.

tears come easily. real easily. esp. these few days. seriously, i can't til next year. when i can be a new person again. i really want to change. change into a person to be loved. and be happy mann. it's tough to act as if you're very happy outside but actually crying inside. it's hard okay, it just is. yes, failure. i know it myself.

bahh. common test is coming. siann. i've decided to strive hard mann. and make it to the top 40. yes, it's impossible. this is what i call self motivation. because there's practically no one to motivate me. no one to even say that they want to.

there's a lot of people sad nowadays. i don't know why but there are. please. look at themselves. actually there are people who are sadder than them. people who nobody cares. people like me. they are actually much more fortunate can. oh mann, i'm going to cry. fuck.

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7/11/2006

7/11/2006 07:50:00 PM

lets talk about today. actually it's just another ordinary day except that today there's council investiture. haha. was okay la. but only til yesterday then i know that it's qian hui taking priscilla's role from president. haha, okay, i'm slow. real slow. -.- but yeah. and today, she's okay la, just don't have the power to rule. hahaha.

okay. so there's maths trail tomorrow. i'm really looking forward to it lah. hopefully it turns out well. (: last year's maths trail was alright, just that i tend to turn really stupid when i panick. haha. so well. what can i say.

oh, class photo. bought one only la. the one i think i look most like a human. haha. oh oh. i'm also looking forward to watching pirates of the carribbean dead man's chest. by the advertisement it ain't that nice, but looking at curse of the black pearl last time, it's going to be great. lalala. remembered that i was actually forced to watch curse of the black pearl like last year or something, who knows it actually turns out to be a great movie la. haha. so yeah. oh, and material girls' going to show in singapore. like finally one hilary duff movie after cinderella story la. but i dunno whether it's going to turn out great anot cause of her hister lah. i always think that haylie is extra, and sort of ruining her career. haha, whatever lah. but there's great directors, so pray hard mann. :/

so well, that's about all i guess. till then.(:

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7/10/2006

7/10/2006 04:48:00 PM

fine. since you want to do this, then just fine. i will not care anymore. bloody. everytime i said i don't care, actually means that i care. i can't just say don't care then don't care, like you okay. i know that you're avoiding me, rather, hua qing jie xian. i mean fine la, just tell me face to face, and i'll nvr think about it anymore. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you.

oh wells. let's talk about something else. i can't like say change to a happy tone then change to a happy tone. nevertheless, i'm going to say something happy now. omg. i can't wait till tonight's 9 pm show on channel 8. it's going to be so nice la. and guess what, i have a prince alr. hohoho. i'm not going to say who it is here la, in case it might sound gross and all. but yeah, just spread the joy. haha. omg. now i have a prince and a knight, who am i going to choose? hahaha. okay, lame.

so well, that's it for today la. just keeping the post short and sweet. lalala. (:

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7/08/2006

7/08/2006 03:21:00 PM

1.Do you envy somebody this very moment?
yeah. i guess i'd always do..

2.Can you tell whether a person is lying or not?
yeah sometimes. but depends lah.

3. Who/What is tattooed on your mind?
somebody. it hurts to see that you are sad and i can't do anything about it.

4.Ever had a secret admirer?
uhm yes?

5.What was the last movie you watched that made you cry?
woah alot eh. but two movies that made me cry like dunno what are i not stupid too and king kong.

6.Do you have a friend who's pretty?
duh.

7.Do you have a lot of bestfriends?
nope.

8.Do you cry when you get low grades?
yes? what you expect me to do. pretend that nothing happened at all? i can't do that man. tried but failed.

9.What is your favorite song?
lots.

11.What freaks you out the most?
cockroaches! haha, and all those things who crawls and look disgusting. eew.

12.Who is the prettiest girl you know?
dunno.

13.what is the song that keeps playing on your mind?
nothing.

14.are you in love right now?
yes? at least i think so.

15.is he/she in love with you too?
no? hais.

16.if you could rewind time,at what moment you could go back to?
when i'm happy.

17.who/what is your biggest enemy?
me.

18. is there somebody you love whom you love more than urself?
i hate myself. so shut up.

19.have you experienced having a fight with the person you have feelings for?
no.

20.what song can you relate to?
i wish there is.

21.do you torture other people?
guess so.

22.who do you like better sam or uma?
huh. sam i guess.

22.Are you in favor of Romeo and Juliet's relationship?
yes.

23.What is the best love story you've ever known?
that they both love each other no matter what happen. call me naive, whatever.

24.what are you looking forward to?
triple science. but.. forget it.

sian. but anw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELODY!(:

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7/04/2006

7/04/2006 05:56:00 PM

heh heh. changed song. paris hilton's stars are blind. haha, her singing not bad one okay. haha. maybe changing again tomorrow. this song seems bitchy. ehhh. but it's not bad la. but the mtv sucked la.

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7/03/2006

7/03/2006 06:57:00 PM

i'm glad that today's school holiday. i just hate home econs la. so disgusting. and dirty. eww. haha. okay. dnt is seriously better than this. seriously. it's more fun too. heh. dunno what i'm talking about lah. sian. shall list the following reasons why i hate home econs.
1. i need to cut my nails every week which is like so omg, cause there's loads of things i can't do properly. e.g when i'm bathing, it's damn hard to open the shampoo bottle la! irritating.
2. need to bring so many things for practical lesson. which i always forgot to bring.
3. the cookingthings,aiya the pots and pans all those lah, so dirty. eeyer.
4. there's no decent soap for washing hands.
so overall, i still prefer dnt lah. yeah, i may seem like a spoilt brat, but who cares.

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7/01/2006

7/01/2006 06:50:00 PM

it has been a busy week indeed. i don't even have time to sleep la. haha. so wednesday. school ened blah blah. went to have lunch with cao shuang then came back for cca. blah blah. forgot already. thursday. after school, some class things which wasted me for like a very long time. pissed off while waiting and in the end, nothing really happen. then after that went to do the poster for the dnt thing and it turned out okay i guess. then rushed to mediacorp for the singapore idol thing. in the end rushed for nothing la. like wtf. so while waiting, i don't have any coins. only notes. so can't buy the drinks at the vending machine la. wtf wtf. then finally after waiting very long, the person lets us go in la. oh and the freebies suck and the camera the person was holding beside us suck. the flashing light just suck, so bright and irritating. so yeah, went in and me and cynthia were sitting at the siew woon and primero there. haha. yeah. felt damn sad for primero. rather, pity. then soon the show started. oh and the studio is damn small when it looked so big on television. and the thing which i think is actually a room, turns out to be not a room. haha. it's just the chair. yeah. so yeah. shouted, cheered for them and then over alr went home. felt sad for siew woon la, i like her. i want her to be in. but hais. whatever la. so overall, it wasokay to good. haha. justnot in the mood to say until veryinteresting like that. thenfriday after school had cca again. then blah blah. haha, yeah. dunno what to update. then saturday! wooh finally. so i woke up at about 11 plus. then after that talked on the phone then went to have lunch at compass with daddy and brother at swensens. the power of voucher. hahaha. but bad news, 5o dollars gone. :( :( :(. but daddy's getting $300 voucher next week i think. hoho. but dunno forwhat la. but yeah.

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